AnvilofSpinning

Im not suicidal, but often times the idea of going to bed and not waking up the next morning seems like a blessing. Is this common before i would reach a point where i go into a crisis?

Ill have to add that im not talking about the casual " wish i was dead lol" kind of thing. Im talking about recurring thoughts because everything is too much at times. I personally don't think suicide is the solution to my issues, but the thought of peacefully going now suits me just fine. Im just scared it will evolve out of control.

Yeah, im over the taboo of not getting help. I just need to find a moment.

Just make sure you put yourself first, like you said it might just get worse.

I'm grateful for being alive despite every misfortune. So I'm not sure if im on that level.