Aemon12

This was a leading question. No one likes to answer such questions since they are not in good faith and meant for no purpose but argument.

How do I build a career in computer security (networks)? Is the military a good way?

I perceive that I have a more proper perspective on things in my life causing anxiety and depression due to perfectionism & regret is when I consume cannabis - in fact, that's the only time I feel like a "normal" person (at ease and without racing thoughts).

Is this typical?

Also, how effective is taking drugs like cannabis during talk therapy in order to improve outcomes?

I've done talk therapy for many years (never while on cannabis) but it ends up exacerbating my anxiety because I'm thinking about what I'll say to the therapist and how I'll be perceived by them. The racing thoughts don't really abate nor do I really gain much insight.