Aektann

So like a poll with real-time peer pressure?

if i paid attention i couldnt catch what was going on or i would space out

seems like a normal student during lectures

I feel very content with my life, and feel like there is nothing left to achieve. What is avenue I can pursue to reintroduce the will to achieve things in my life? Suggested readings, exercises, stuff like that.

Thank you.

Thanks for your advice!

Currently doing that as well, but the pleasure I'm getting from learning a skill lasts only while I'm learning something. And I don't feel like dedicating every bit of free time to learning something. Another problem is that those skills seem a bit pointless to learn. I mean, for fun, yeah, but there is no practical goal, so the motivation is limited to the amount of fun I'm getting within the learning itself.

I'm just kind of dysphoric. Basically, I was a person who was motivated by achievement and self-improvement. I have narcissistic traits as well, which is another thing entirely, but seems to be connected, as my outwards reflection is more important than whatever goes inside me; thus, as I was getting better, smarter, and didn't have what I supposed to be a 'good life' (money, career, looks, relationships), I felt better (I was on my 'path'). And as soon as I fulfilled the necessary criteria for a good life, I don't see much point in doing anything else. I'm kind of accepted myself, lots of things have happened during the last few years, and most of the time I feel just 'happy' or 'content', but in an anhedonic/dysphoric way. Like, living a life in a world where there is no real sense to live, but still having good things in life to make that experience bearable.

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