I'm a 2x World Series champ with the SF Giants who overcame addiction, depression, losing my career and identity. AMA!
Aubrey Huff here. I played Major League Baseball for 13 years with the Tampa Bay Devil Rays, Houston Astros, Baltimore Orioles, Detroit Tigers and won 2 World Series with the San Francisco Giants. I was a left-handed hitter and a right-handed 1st baseman who is probably best known for being the rally thong jackass. I was addicted to Adderal in my heyday from 2009-2011. In 2012, I got clean, then had a panic attack and my career ended.
Retiring at age 37 was actually harder than making it to the Big Leagues. I dreamt of being a professional baseball player from a very young age. For 30+ years, my entire life revolved around baseball. When I retired, I felt like my identity and purpose was stripped away from me. I went from having adoring fans screaming my name, the VIP treatment everywhere I went, first-class flights and hotels and being treated like a hero to feeling like a zero. I missed the game, my friends, the camaraderie, life on the go. I had so much time on my hands, it made my sense of worthlessness even greater. I fell into a deep depression and had crippling anxiety. It got so bad I sat in my dark closet with a .357 Magnum aimed at my head, ready to end it all. (You can read more about this on my blog: https://aubreyhuff.com/from-the-diamond-to-the-darkness/)
Luckily I found my way and was able to let go of "Aubrey Huff the baseball player" and become "Aubrey Huff the proud father" raising my two sons to be remarkable young men. Looking forward to your questions. Ask Me Anything.