I am still alive but my heart stopped twice since then, and it was all due to 9/11. spent 8 years also in swat, located in jersey city and retired in 2006. Proof:Imgur Imgur Imgur Imgur

Edit 1: Decided to take a break i will be back later to answer more questions

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ghettosparty1845 karma

Do you think you'll try dying a couple more times during retirement?

Spaghettimonnster2917 karma

I'm a perfectionist, I'll get it right one day.

inkyj281606 karma

Thank you for your service.

Spaghettimonnster1429 karma

No thanks needed

Haboo651173 karma

Thanks anyway.

krazykenn1118 karma

You passive-aggressive monster.

notoriiouzz400 karma

a pasghetti monster

krazykenn402 karma

Pasghetti - A gang or mob that consists of angry, fat, italian teenagers.

Spaghettimonnster661 karma

a danny devito look alike

Trickyknowsbest256 karma

It was the events of 9/11 that led me to become FireFighter. The heroics of the police, firefighters and first responders that day are something that I could never compare myself to. I have been in countless fires and dangerous situations but have questioned myself on if I would of been able to go inside those buildings or deal with so much death. Hats off to you sir for dealing with hell that day, I know it had to be one of the hardest moments in your life. I would like to personally thank you for your service.

Spaghettimonnster175 karma

are you a FDNY?

skibbityboo1390 karma

The second time you died, were you all like "Not this shit again!!"?

Spaghettimonnster864 karma

Didn't knew what happened to me

und3feated766 karma

  • what's your take on all the conspiracy surrounding the attack?
  • exactly what caused you heart to stop since 9/11
  • might be a stupid question, but how did it feel to be [presumably] dead? or slipping out into 'death'
  • give us your craziest swat team story! love hearing these

Spaghettimonnster1285 karma

  1. every major event in the US has some sort of conspiracy theory, so he is one for you. If you noticed, during all the wreckage that there was no NYC Taxi's destroyed. everyday at that time, Taxi's are surrounding the 16 acre for the pick up of passengers. NOT THAT DAY!!! I wonder why.

  2. A broken heart, knowing that I,m here and my co workers and friends aren't.

  3. Didnt feel a thing, my mother in law asked me if I have seen the light? no there is not light, I guess thats showing you where i'm heading....Going Down.

  4. First, Its not SWAT, we on the east coast call it Emergency Service Unit.we provide other functions beside weapons and tactic,but thats a whole other discussion. PAPD ESU; we were doing a high risk warrant, I was the first one in line using a ballistic shield and my issused weapon, we gained entry in to this very,very small apartment. 2 perps arrested, now we started our search, I was checking under the bed, so I lifted it up by the bed frame and placed it on its side. Thats when we heard this high screeching sound. It took a few seconds to find out what it was. Their cat was pinned under the bed frame. I lifted the frame up, the cat ran out headed for the front door. Of course I was called the cat killer, eventhough I love cats. Thats not the end. just about two years ago My unit was being sued by the perps, and I was named in that suit for killing the cat.

Kuggis644 karma

Do you regret anything that you did in the regular police force/S.W.A.T ?

Spaghettimonnster1172 karma

Making a death notification to parents

Kuggis326 karma

Well that sure is heavy. Thanks for the reply.

Yoyo8267 karma

Check out south land. Deep shit, man.

Spaghettimonnster514 karma

southland is one of my favorites

Escalus01121 karma

How is it, watching Southland as someone who's lived inside the world they're trying to portray? We clearly agree it's a great show, but is there anything that was way off-base or completely right-on? How would you say they capture the mood and atmosphere of reality?

Spaghettimonnster196 karma

I see it differently, when watching any cop shows, I usually pick out what they are doing wrong or say thats not the way they should have done it its comical at best

blix65573 karma

Being in the military, I don't usually get a chance to say this. Thank you for your service! You have had a much greater impact on the world that I ever will.

Spaghettimonnster866 karma

it is I that should be thanking you. Every soldier is our first line of defense. The men and women of our miliatry are under paid , overworked, and not taken cared of after the fact. so please dont sell yourself short..

Tequila_Wolf546 karma

As a cop, did you or do other cops get really nervous when you're two days away from retirement?

Spaghettimonnster454 karma

no I left on my own terms

potato_masher449 karma

Aside from the obvious 9/11 I'm sure NYC had many of interesting stories, what's your best?

Spaghettimonnster1060 karma

My best was talking down 2 suicidal jumpers from the Bayonne bridge in 1 day these were 2 separated incidents in which i made the front page of the NY post the next day

krazykenn277 karma


Spaghettimonnster835 karma

no, you learn to disassociate yourself from certain situations like this. if the out come had been different, now it will eat you up, you will be playing the what if game in your head. a year later I did run into one of the other persons, but at a different command. He was taken away in ambulance. nothing really changed for him except the scenery.

sqwirk75 karma

How long did it take you to talk each one down? Did you get to know their stories or events that led up to them wanting to jump? Did they receive psychiatric care or were they placed under arrest?

Spaghettimonnster200 karma

the first guy was depressed because his wife had cancer and he couldnt pay for any treatment. the second person was any escaped mental patient, he had been missing for a day. I had to chase him down, then talked to him. Both men were sent to the hospital for observation then released.

OyyBrent378 karma


Spaghettimonnster739 karma

YES YES YES, cancer takes time and different paths for everyone. There were a shit load of toxic products that was being burned for days. All first responders were given thin paper mask, that had zero protection. At that time Director of the EPA Christie Todd Whitman, stated that there was no toxins in the air. But all the tested data showed otherwise. It shouldnt be just that day but that whole area of NYC and the people , victims and responders, clean up crews.

343346E225 karma

And no one prosecuted or sued her for that?

Spaghettimonnster547 karma

certainly not. all gov't officals are protected under some loophole law. Trust me I've asked that question myself.

Brokenberry142 karma

Shitty shifts, unhealthy diets due to those shifts, and exposure to chemicals from house fires/ 9/11 all seem to contribute to first responders getting cancer

Spaghettimonnster138 karma

very much so.

Astrogios308 karma

What was it like to die?

Spaghettimonnster647 karma

I was asleep. peacefull

jumpydave260 karma

Have you had any long term health effects from what was in the air during 9/11?

Spaghettimonnster447 karma

Several, I have died 3 times from respitory distress. I was flown to Philidelphia,PA for an emergency tracheotomy. Now I,ve been diagniosised with Pulmonary hypertesion and heart failure.

iu55160 karma

Did you die another time since beginning this AMA? Glad to have you back.

Spaghettimonnster273 karma

glad to be back. if you died once its still once to many times

Ashmanfisher196 karma

What did you think when we finally got Bin Laden?

Spaghettimonnster522 karma

Too little too late it should of been done a lot faster



Spaghettimonnster791 karma

everyone says that pot is the gateway to other drugs. that's bullshit. the govt should capitalize on this. there is money to be made.

Stevenisuseless147 karma

I am currently attending the police academy. What advice can you give me that you wish someone would have given you at the beginning of your career?

Spaghettimonnster276 karma

Don't rush in, Its hard to when we are that type of person. Stop, take a breathe, look , think, then react. the more info you have the better your look .

HairballJenkins132 karma

  1. How did you feel about the SWAT vehicles?? I work for an armored vehicle company that designs and manufactures next gen swat trucks (www.heat-armor.com). What did you like and not like about the vehicles you all were transported in?

  2. If you had eleven fingers, how would you use your extra finger to your advantage?

Spaghettimonnster447 karma

  1. too many styles, what one do you have in mind. very cramped poor ventalation, bumpy suspension. If you need a consultant I'm available.
  2. It would be for 'HER' advantage.

ithinktherefore104 karma

Relatively young NYC EMT here. I grew up around a few people who responded on 9/11 (with volunteer fire companies or on the job with PD/FD), so all I can say is: thanks for your service brother. Can't see your patches too well in the pic, PAPD ESU?

And my question(s): at what stage in the WTC op did you arrive on scene? Were you responding from Jersey City that day? How long after the initial plane into building were you dispatched? How did you feel when you were first pulling up?

Spaghettimonnster66 karma

Yes PAPD ESU. arrived about 20 mins before tower 2 collapse, I responded from Newark Airport, The ohh shit factor took over.

noahnlsn92 karma

What's it like living in NJ? I went there once. place was full of assholes. I can only imagine being a police officer there..

Spaghettimonnster153 karma

Still the same, it sucked i also worked in NYC

eric27345 karma

What part of NJ are you in?

Spaghettimonnster146 karma

jersey shore.

PawnShop80455 karma

Thank you for your service.

What was the first thing you thought when you reached the WTC after the attack? (assuming it hadn't collapsed by then) Were you expecting it to collapse at all?

Spaghettimonnster134 karma

HOLY SHIT. breathtaking in the evil sense. seeing peoples last desperations, then hearing the impact.

Spaghettimonnster25 karma

I appreciate all the kindness and thanks for my services and duties and having some great questions. I had fun and thank you Reddit!

thespacejammer16 karma

Im not sure if he realizes he's supposed to answer the questions...

Spaghettimonnster92 karma

go with your question.

Grindstone50k52 karma


Have just a little bit of patience, yes?

Spaghettimonnster34 karma

im trying, my heart has to keep up with fingers so I can type.

HITMAN61610 karma

I love how you casually mention "died twice" at the end.

Do you have still have contact with either people you saved that day or people who lost someone in the plane crashes/towers?

What is the support network currently like for all those involved?

Spaghettimonnster4 karma

after a few years go by everyone goes thier own way. I haven't talked or seen my partner in years.