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OP has Borderline Personality Disorder. BPD can lead to strong "love-hate" feelings, as well as deep-seated feelings of victimhood and oppression(not to mention hugely susceptible to risk-taking, drug abuse, and suicidal ideation).

That all said, OP seems to have some cognizance of this and is getting treatment, so while it sounds like a pretty brutal thing to have done, we don't have the full story. People with BPD are notoriously difficult to deal with and often lack cognizance of their wrongdoing, so the fact that OP isn't completely avoiding responsibility says something.

Since your ex was male, quick question. Did he smoke pot?

There's a subset of CVS called CHS(cannabinoid hyperemesis syndrome), It affects males more than females(whereas with CVS it's the opposite) and presents itself after one begins smoking regularly. I have CHS, and I had to give up my smoking habits and it went away. Completely. Kinda sucks because I miss smoking pot... But I don't miss vomiting for days and spending hours in a scalding hot shower.

I dunno, just thought I'd ask.

Stunt doubles in The Passion of the Christ 2: Judgement day?

I'd be worried that anything I asked him to turn on would violently explode...

I have an uncle who is a diamond wholesaler. And I know he got into the business(from the ground up) because a group of orthodox Jewish diamond merchants needed a 10th man for their Minyan(one of their colleagues had died).

Not trying to perpetuate stereotypes, but I'm legitimately interested. In your opinion, roughly what percentage of those involved in diamond distribution are Jewish?