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i just moved to FFM from america to get away from the heroin scene there. i've been an IV user for a while now, and i thought that moving away from home would be a good way to get clean. lo and behold, i stumbled into the "Hauptstadt des Drogenverbrechens" but am still trying to stay clean as best i can.

i went to the Drogennotdienst (located at Elbestraße 38, 60329 FFM for anyone else in a similar situation) today and spoke to the people there about a methadone or subutex substitution program. since i'm not german, i am not fully insured. since i'm a heroin addict, i have no money. is there any way for me to get cheap/free help staying sober without being a german citizen? i speak german and have a job, but i can't go through the provided Krankenversicherung because it specifically does not cover drug treatment programs. i'd also be afraid of getting drug tested and fired (i work for a very large and well-known german company).

it seems so easy to score in the Bahnhofsviertel once you know where to go -- and as a semi-recovering addict, it's hard for me to control my impulses to do so. any advice would be appreciated. and if all else fails, it's nice to know that i might not be prosecuted with a small amount of heroin if i relapse and use the Konsumraum in a safe way.

Vielen Dank, tolles AMA! Ich hab's auf Englisch geschrieben, um andere englischsprachige Drogenabhängige in Frankfurt zu helfen. Es gibt wenige Information online für Drogenabhängige in Deutschland auf Englisch!

as an IV heroin addict who is currently detoxing in a foreign country, i'd just like to say that your post made me feel about 1000 times worse than i did a second ago. aaaaand i'm fiending.

i honestly cannot wait to feel like you feel. it's this mythical land of sobriety i keep hearing about, where everyone is happy and healthy and so done with dope. even in another goddamn country all i want to do is get out, score, and shoot up. if i weren't completely unable to (and by that i mean way too clueless about how i'd go about doing it here) i'd be high already.

i try and think about how much my soul burned with self-hatred as i sat there, repeatedly stabbing that blunt needle into my arm again and again, trying to find a vein i knew i probably couldnt hit anyway.

i've been there so many goddamn times and yet somehow i forget all about it. drugs are a fucking burden. i hope i get to where you are soon.

thanks for doing this AMA! my grandpa was a korean-american soldier in WWII and i wish i had talked to him more about all this.

1. what do you think of modern european socialism? i know it's a lot different from soviet communism, but i wonder if you have a different perspective on it than the rest of us.

2. what were your and your wife's reaction when the berlin wall fell?

3. what has been the happiest moment of your life?

4. if you could go back in time and change or relive anything, what would it be?