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Like I said, I have struggled with the decision to post this. I have found that the more I talk about it, the more "at peace" I feel. He was in bed with us. Although quite a few members of our support group lost children on the couch.

Our family takes it one day at a time. My daughter had just turned 4 when everything happened. She asked when C would be coming home. My mother started to talk about heaven and what not. I asked her not to tell my daughter about heaven. I figured my daughter would see heaven as a place, and if it's a place then C could come back. I used that opportunity to explain death to my daughter. I know it sounds a bit rough for a child, but explaining that when someone dies they can not return was the best thing for her. She has accepted it and in my opinion is doing wonderful. She somewhat openly talks about C, but understands that it is a sensitive subject.

She has definitely had more of a struggle. She has been diagnosed with depression, but has been in therapy. I feel she is slowly getting better each day. Our support group helps the most.

I also have read that co-sleeping is quite common. However, I do recommend the co-sleeping boxes to parents who co-sleep. Thank you for the support.

Til the day I die, I will always ask myself why I didn't stay awake and put C back in his crib. Support groups help a great deal. My wife and I were just discussing the constant questioning of our decisions of that night.